Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Morning

Owen, you were born one year ago this morning, shortly after the sun rose on the longest night of my life. You were born into silence. A year ago, I held you and kissed you and gazed down at your beautiful face for the first time. For the last time. I handed you to your father and we lived a lifetime with you in that tiny hospital room.

This morning, I woke just before dawn to find that your older brother and sister had climbed into my bed in the middle of the night. Your new little brother or sister rolled within in me and I once again watched the sunrise. I closed my eyes and remembered how you felt in my arms. Another day, a new day.

22 comments:

yummysushipajamas said...

What a beautiful post. I am so sorry for the pain and loss, but so happy to hear the hope and happiness too. I hope they stay with you.

CLC said...

Oh, Ashleigh, I wish he were still here. I am so sorry.

c. said...

There's just nothing I can say, Ashleigh. I wish he were here. XO.

Julia said...

These are tough days.
Thinking of you.

G said...

Oh Ash, my heart hurts for you. Thinking of you.

janis said...

This post is so beautiful, Ashleigh.
Thinking of you, holding you and your family in my heart today.

k@lakly said...

Bittersweet, Owen who is gone and the new life, waiting to be welcomed home in your arms.
Thinking of you and all of your babies.
xxoo

Tash said...

Thinking of you and Owen today.

Clarissa said...

beautiful

Anonymous said...

Delurking to let you know that you and your precious Owen are in my thoughts today.

-Kaye

missing_one said...

Remembering Sweet Owen, and holding you all close to my heart.
Happy Angelday Owen! You are so special!

missing_one said...

Thinking of you all and holding you close to my heart!
Happy Angelday sweet Owen! You are so special to us!

STE said...

Thinking of you today.

mrsmuelly said...

I'm sorry to share this day with you with such a sad remberance. Thank you for visiting my blog. Your post is beautiful.

noswimmers said...

What a beautiful post. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Monica said...

((HUGS)) Remembering you and sweet Owen today.

Scrumpkin said...

I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I wish things could be different.

Ange said...

Now I am crying.. So sorry I wish you could hold him once again.

Sarah said...

I am so so sorry.

Happy Birthday to your beautiful Owen!

k@lakly said...

Hey there,
Just checking to see how you are and of course to see if there is any, ahem, news:)
Keeping good thoughts for the safe arrival of this little one.
xxoo

RB said...

How beautiful. Its all so unfair - I wish he was still in your arms...

k@lakly said...

Still checking on you, drop a quick note and let us know you are ok:)
or email me!
kalakly at yahoo dot com
Enquiring minds and all that jazz