Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Where I'm At

First, I wanted to say thank you all for your comments on my last post. I really can't tell you how much they mean to me. I hear hope in your words and feel it too. Then I start to think that maybe I really can do this. You make me stronger.


To illustrate where I am right now, I'll share a story. We ended up telling my dad about this pregnancy the other night. I hadn't really planned on it (in fact I hadn't said the words "I'm pregnant" out loud at all yet), but he kept offering me wine and I was getting annoyed. So I finally blurted out "You know, Dad, I'm kind of hoping not to be able to have another glass of wine until at least mid-August." He was very emotional and thrilled. Later in the evening, he made some comment about us having a baby and I immediately thought "Oh I'm not sure I'm having a baby, I just know I'm pregnant."

8 comments:

Coggy said...

That made me chuckle. I think that would be my attitude too.
You can do this Ashleigh. I think Monica said on my blog that if you can cope with the death of your son, you can cope with a subsequent pregnancy. I think she's right.

kalakly said...

Wow...just wow. I missed your post yesterday so I am a bit "late" in responding. I have everything crossed for you. And can't wait for August.
You go girl!

a- said...

I can understand your response after going through a miscarriage and then a stillbirth. The fact that you told your dad though is cool. I wouldn't be able to share that news with anyone if I were in your shoes.

meg said...

Congratulations on your news and for telling your Dad. That is a big step. I like what Coggy said about coping (well I guess Monica said it originally), but it's a good one anyway.

c. said...

You're "at" a good and reasonable place, Ashleigh. You can't help but feel cautious right? You can absolutely do this. Absolutely. XO.

Rosalind said...

Good for you being being able to tell your dad.. I always imagine not telling anyone until I was forced to .. like maybe when I can't see my feet..hehehe

charmedgirl said...

i wish i could just give you a kiss.

no matter what, i don't know...just no matter what.

Ann said...

Yes, that's how I feel about the possibility of getting pregnant again--I wouldn't want anyone to be under the mistaken impression that pregnancy always equals baby. It's kind of hard to even think the word "celebrate," isn't it?