Monday, March 3, 2008
Days and Dates
So something happened this last month that I hadn't really considered. February has less than 30 days, so this month there was no 30th. No anniversary of losing Owen. No seven months ago today I was holding him or kissing him or saying goodbye. While I realize that even though there was no actual date anniversary, the time has still passed, but it felt different. Maybe even...good? I don't know. I still miss my baby, but it did feel nice not to spend another day reliving that horrible, wonderful day.
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Hey Meg..Rosalind here. I'm glad you didn't have to relive that day even if it was because of a short month..It's nice to have that break..isn't it?? I on the other hand will never have that since 'the day' falls on the first of every month but, I will say somehow and for some reason it's getting somewhat easier..
Well, I'm glad February has been kind to you.
Sorry Ashleigh I typed Meg.. I'm a scatterbrain ..sorry again about that
When I read Julia's post on this fact it had never occurred to me that February meant this to so many of us out here.
I'm not sure how I'd feel about it either. Relieved or cheated? These days I don't know.
Coggy- For me, at least it was a little of both. Cheated because it feels a little like another thing we lost out on and relieved because honestly it was a little nice to get a break from the dreaded anniversary day. It was weird how it snuck on me though.
Ashleigh
I guess I don't feel cheated because I just make the last day of the month - whether it's the 31st or not - be the anniversary of the day he died. It never occured to me that it wasn't, even if the number dates didn't match up. Does that make sense???
One more thing I never thought about for others out there. I'm sorry it was a strange month. Maybe things are getting a bit softer now?!
BTW, thank you for the comment on my side and yes, I do know what you mean by happy, I'm happy too!
yes, after julia's post, i realized that we have so much invested in dates. it almost made me feel less attached to obsessing over what dates to feel miserable about. you know?
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