Friday, May 9, 2008

So Far So Good

We met with the perinatalogist today for another scan. I am pleased to say that everything looks really good at this point. The baby is appropriately sized and everything seems to be growing and developing as it should. It's also really cute. I have a fabulous picture that I am considering posting, but I'm trying to remain sensitive to those of you who would find that very hurtful. I'll admit there's a part of me that wishes s/he would be born now. I know that's crazy, and anyone who has had an extremely premature baby would like to shoot me for saying it, but I can't help but feel like at least s/he is alive at this point.

The perinatalogist wants to see me again in about 6 weeks to check on growth, development, etc. I wish I had his confidence that we will get that far. I want to.

12 comments:

G said...

Yay! I was thinking about you today. Glad things were good. I would love to see the pic :)

k@lakly said...

That is great news!!! I totally get how you feel. I already 'argued' with my new doc about when I would deliver(assuming, you know, it becomes an issue) b/c of the scheduled c/sect. He wants to do it at 39 weeks and I on the otherhand want it ot as soon as it is safe, like 37/38 at the latest and I know even getting there will make me absolutely bonkers.
I guess this is pregnancy, after...

Keeping good thoughts for you in the coming weeks.
I hope JD's grandmother finds her peace soon.
xxoo

Monica said...

I'd love to see the pic, but I understand not wanting to post it. I'm glad everything went well at the perinatologist. I too saw one in my second pregnancy. From twenty eight weeks on it was every week for some sort of check. It was deff worth it though! Stay strong girl and I hope Mother's Day is not too difficult for you.

c. said...

I think I will try to get through these moments, when I'm fortunate enough to get pregnant, by rehearsing my mantra: Accept the Good. Can you test drive it for me and let me know if it works?

I've got everything crossed for you, Ashleigh.

As for the pic, I'd love to see it.

CLC said...

That's great news. I have confidence for you! You'll get there. Fingers crossed.

yummysushipajamas said...

I am SO happy for you! Thanks for keeping us up to date, and I would love to see the picture.

niobe said...

Sounds like things are progressing well.

Just an idea: you could just post a link to the picture, so those who don't want to look at it wouldn't have to, but those who want to see it (raising hand: me! me!) could.

lifecanbeashit said...

Great to read all is going so well.
I know just how you feel about bub being born now. Im the same. I just keep thinking that a live bub in NICU is better than a ..... baby inside me. Im guessing thats a normal reaction for a mum whos bub has died.
Im just lucky that my Ob is happy to c section me at 36 weeks.

Hugs
xxx

STE said...

So glad you got good news. Sometimes it helps me to rest in the confidence of others. Hope it can bring you some comfort.

emmay said...

I'm a lurker here, but I'm coming out of the woodwork to tell you that, even as a preemie mom twice (28 weeker and 30 weeker) I totally get why you want this baby born now. I've admitted that, once my daughters were out of imminent danger, underneath all the guilt and worry, there was a certain sense of being grateful that at least I could see what was going on...that if something went wrong, we would probably know it. Sure, my preference would always have been to get my girls to term, but given what you've been through, a preemie is a better option than death. I hope this last trimester flies by for you and that a healthy, full-term baby is in your arms before you know it.

Coggy said...

You should post the pic, this is your blog and if I've learnt one thing in all of this you can't censor yourself on your own blog. If you want to warn people put the pic up at the bottom after your post. Or the link like Niobe suggested is a good idea. Seriously though, we wouldn't be reading if we didn't want to know how you are doing or how cute the little one is. Kx x

Clarissa said...

I feel the same way. Wish this baby came now...even though I know I don't really mean it. Maybe what I wish is that time speeds up a bit...maybe 18 years from now. That would be good.