Tuesday, May 20, 2008

The Longest Day

At this exact point in my pregnancy with Owen, I woke up to that terrible stillness. And of course, what followed changed me forever. I can't help but compare. This morning, I woke to the gentle tap tap tap that I've be accustomed to. This baby seems so different from Owen. More active in general (for which I am eternally grateful), but calmer in movement. I can't help but wonder if Owen's periods of intense activity were a sign that something was wrong. Should I have known? Was he trying to tell me something that I couldn't hear? What could this new baby be trying to tell me?

I imagine this will be a very long day.








* I'm going to take Niobe's advice and set up a link to some ultrasound pics for those who want to see them, but our scanner is acting all wonky, so it may be a few more days.

9 comments:

G said...

What a tough day ahead. I am glad the baby is giving you taps to let you know he/she is all right.

Thank you for sharing this with us. You will be in my thoughts all day.

c. said...

I imagine this hurdle will be a difficult one to jump. Thinking of you today, Ashleigh, and every day. XO.

Kristen said...

You will be in my thoughts today. I'm happy to hear this baby is reassuring you with those taps.

Katie said...

My thoughts are with you on this Longest Day.

k@lakly said...

I can't believe it is already here, this day in your pregnancy. It seemed so far off and yet here you are. I am so glad you got your taps.
You, Owen and your new little dancer are all in my thoughts today Ashleigh. Here's to another 10 or so weeks of happy tapping.
xxoo

Tash said...

Ugh, brutal. Hang in there.

You know, Maddy wasn't overly active either. And I kept mentioning it, and as long as she made her kick counts, no one seemed worried. Just so you know it wasn't you.

Keep kicking, you.

Mrs. Spit said...

Thinking of you . . .

CLC said...

Ashleigh, I have been thinking about you all day and how stressful this must be. Just think, you are more than halfway there.

Cibele said...

May this day go by very fast and tomorrow bring new hope and happines