Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Still Here

Just a quick boring post to let you know that I'm still around. I've been ridiculously busy with holiday stuff and trying cope with the overwhelming sense of anxiety and stress I'm feeling. I'm anxious about everything and I hate it. Just dealing with the small stuff is taking everything I've got these days.

I miss my baby. This sucks.

9 comments:

Carole said...

Ashleigh,
I'm so sorry. It does suck. I remember last year...I felt like I couldn't breathe.

Thinking of you...
~Carole

Coggy said...

The anxiety definitely sucks. The only way I find to deal with it is to do what it sounds like you're doing. Just keep doing stuff. It eventually recedes. I don't feel as anxious now since I've faced up to doing things that I've been dreading. As much as I hate working and being round people it has helped.
I miss my baby too. So much.
I hope things get easier for you soon Ashleigh.
(((hugs)))

HLHArts said...

I know it does! Hang in there, one day at a time, blah blah blah, right? We just have to keep getting out of bed in the mornings.

Rosalind said...

Me too Honey..I'm with you

The anxiety sucks, the saddness, the anger...just sucks

C. said...

SUCKS describes this exactly. You're in my thoughts, Ashleigh. Always.

Clarissa said...

and you will miss him forever. i just hope the anxiety ceases eventually. it is such a frustrating feeling.

feel better.

meg said...

You said it perfectly: this does SUCK! And I am pretty anxious myself, these days. I so get it.

ngonzalez212 said...

im new here and of course never thought that i would be looking for women who have something so devastating in common. i just lost my baby two weeks ago nov 30th. i had to terminate my pregnacy due to renal agenesis. anyone out ther want to talk please right back. probrably not but i find it helpful for me but every1 is different. igave birth to a baby girl who looked perfect to me, so how could this be. only God knows and my faith in God has helped me each and every day. I know some1 is reading this and saying who cares. "my baby is dead" but i just want every1 to know that there is hope and every1 deals with a loss differently. ive just read so many stories from women who r helping me to realize that im not alone which i thought i was. even though its only been two weeks believe it or not everyday has gotten better,of course im still hurting and cry about my baby girl who we were looking foward to having. we wanted to have a little girl so bad. now she is gone but even though we are all dealing with this painfull process differently we will get through it and become stronger.God Bless

kalakly said...

It's amazing how MUCH energy the little stuff sucks out of you. Now, when it's all just busy work and no real joy is there, it's just so overwhelming and feels so empty.

I hope we all find our way through this nightmare.

Until then I guess "still here" is better than the alternative, right?:)